I didn’t receive a lot of encouragement in my early years. Oh, I knew I was loved by my family, but they were family! What I was looking for needed to come from outsiders, people who knew me and would tell me how great I was. But, it seems that every time I did something I believed to be so wonderful, someone suggested that if I had just added one more thing (you fill in the blank), it would have been great. Over and over I heard this. I heard it in grammar school, high school, and college.
By the time I became employed, I was well entrenched in the reality that I was not that great and never would be. So, how did I respond? No matter what the assignment, I tried not only to do my best, but to add whatever was necessary to my best to make it the best ever done! Not a bad strategy. It never brought me the satisfaction I desired. In my eyes, I was still not living at the level of personal satisfaction I desired.
When you live in the negative for long enough, it appears that there is no positive in life. That’s when one becomes a cynic. That was me. No matter the situation, I could always make fun of it and cast dispersion on it. Be it a personal or corporate setting, it didn’t matter.
He agreed with my assessment. I really wasn’t very good. As a matter of fact, I was a miserable person, living for my own pleasure and doing what ever I chose to do. So, I said to myself, I was right! He said, “No, you were wrong.” He came into my life and turned me upside down and inside out. Over a period of time I came to understand that I was a new creature who was becoming an even newer person as I grew in my understanding of Him and His relationship with me.
But then, I reached back and pulled some of the old thinking into the new landscape. No way He could give me all of this without my contribution. Surely there was more I could do to be “truly” acceptable in His sight.
My grace is sufficient for you. You don’t add anything. You have been received just as you are. You are forgiven, redeemed and destined to glorify Me all your days. Then you will join Me forever. Your continued efforts to make me love you are not necessary. I love you. Always have. Always will. So, concentrate your efforts not so much on “doing” for Me, but on “Being” with Me.
I am encouraged. I will remain encouraged. His grace is sufficient for me.